Time just flies so fast I must say. In a few months time, or after a couple of months to be exact, I'd be able to see and feel the stuff that I've been wanting from this particular thing for months now.

Actually, in all honesty, I really don't know what to feel. It's actually a mix emotion. I'm quite ecstatic and pretty nervous at the same time and I'm pretty scared as well. I really don't know what to expect once we'll get to see each other. All I just wanted to happen is that to finally see you and let's see what happens after that. I just really want to know if how genuine you are, and if you're really a real deal, because at this very moment, I still can't say if you're really that sincere. I want to see and feel personally that you have invested so much time time and energy just to be with me. And yes, I'm still skeptical if I'm doing the right thing, and if you have good intentions towards me. I still have to remain positive though, and I'll keep my fingers crossed that everything will turn out the way I expected.

My mind is just so preoccupied with a lot of things lately, and I’ve realized tons of things, and one of which is that there are certain things in life that are definitely beyond our control. At times, we have never imagined even in our wildest dreams that we can do something or we can make a certain decision in life even in a short period of time or without even consulting the people closest to us. And not to mention, others would think that this certain action isn't really a great idea or would not help you in the long run.


But nevertheless, sometimes we have to take some risks and really hope for the best that this particular thing would turn out well in the end. If we think that doing it would genuinely make us happy, then we should go for it and would not allow anyone or anything to get in the way of real happiness that everyone of us truly deserves.
Moreover, I do admit that there were times that I'm kind of scared to welcome this particular idea but I believe that I wouldn't feel the real happiness in life if I'll be forever scared and wouldn't take some risks in life. I need to be mindful though in order not to commit the same mistakes in the past, and be more responsible and mature enough this time around.

As what I've mentioned in my previous post a few weeks back, I have made decisions these past weeks and one of which is currently preoccupying my mind if it's the wise thing to do. Yes, I know that some people would raise their eyebrows about this certain thing and I'm pretty sure that they would definitely say that it's not a bright idea, but nevertheless, at that very moment when I came up with that very tough decision, all I'm thinking was, I just have to go with the flow and I got so carried away by my emotions as well.

Moreover, I have noticed a lot of things lately and there was something that I've discovered just awhile ago. And because of this, this one is starting to give me a headache. It haunts me and I'm starting to feel that maybe it isn't really a great idea. Additionally, the very reason why I did that was simply because I just felt that it was about time to take a risk and I should get out of my comfort zone because I'm not that young anymore. Nonetheless, at the back of my mind, there are tons of things that keep me holding back but one thing's for sure, I just can't afford to lose it and to easily let go of this thing as it's starting to grow on me already.

In a few months time, the things that currently remain a mystery to me would finally be unveiled. I’m hoping that the stuff that I’ve been dying to feel and hear for months now, would finally be uttered and shown to me, so that I can definitely say that it’s indeed a real deal. That all of the time and energy that I’ve invested are truly worth it and absolutely worth the wait.

I really believe that there are huge reasons why certain things had to happen or why things didn’t work out. Yes, at first, it would be very difficult to accept why it had to happen, and it’s definitely very heart-wrenching to realize that you have to let go of that person and you have to move forward with your life without him/her. And it would be tougher, most especially, if your world only revolved around that certain person for quite some time, wherein you had learned to live life with him/her.

Nonetheless, I really believe that everything happens for a reason. Only God knows why He had to let you experience those heartbreaks and I’m pretty sure that the reason behind it is that when the time comes that when you have to look back, you’ll be very grateful to Him because He never allowed you to stay in a relationship that would not help bring out the best in you in the long run.

That said, I just want to share one of my favorite quotes and here it is..lol..



Like I said, there's definitely a reason why we need to go through all the pain or heartbreaks in life, and that is simply because He has a much better plan for you, it may seem ironic but we always have to believe that there's someone out there that would love you for the rest of your life, and would love you unconditionally.