Today is the day...

Today is the day! I have been thinking about this thing the past weeks and I just felt that maybe today is finally the right time to figure things out.

Actually, in all honesty, I'm quite scared and a bit confused nowadays that for the second time, I might disappoint a lot of people again. The same persons that I had hurt several years back. I hate seeing them sad because that is my number one weakness. However, I have to face everything courageously since this the best thing that I can do at this very moment. I have to admit that I'm in a very difficult situation now since this is not yet the perfect time for this one, but nevertheless, if it will be given to me, I would definitely accept it wholeheartedly. And besides, I believe that there's one particular person who would be very ecstatic if the outcome is something that he's been waiting to happen and have been prayed for, for several years now. Thinking about him and how he would be very excited for the two of us, is already enough for me to be strong and yes, I'll be happy to seize the moment with him. I just hope that everything will fall into place, and the persons that are very close to my heart, would one day get to accept my decision and will learn to be happy for me as well.